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Most Vulnerable Thing I Have Ever Done

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I have survived so much, including attempts on my life, yet sharing my story is perhaps the most frightening and vulnerable thing I have ever done. I was told to protect the family secret at all costs, that to speak up would mean losing my family, my roots, and my life. Attending the Saprea Retreat 11 months ago gave me a new family of strong survivor sisters. I learned to ground myself and to reconnect to my roots, to honor my own survival skills and resilience as proof of hope and faith at work in my life. 

By sharing my story, I am finally free of my past and my family’s chains of shame. I forgive, let go, and move on. By forgiving I am freeing myself to be fully present and to allow hope to fill those empty spaces so I may continue to thrive. 

Spending a few days in luxury at the Saprea Retreat, I learned I deserve indoor plumbing, good healthy food, friends, and a supportive family of my choice. 

Thank you for giving me the tools to find my own roots and wings and voice. The healing effect continues long after our short time at the Saprea Retreat. Thank you for giving me a space to share my story without judgement. Thank you, Saprea and survivor sisters for being here for me. I am forever grateful. 

-Heather, Survivor