{"id":29051,"date":"2024-07-24T23:40:49","date_gmt":"2024-07-25T05:40:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/saprea.org\/stories\/jai-eu-du-mal-a-savoir-qui-jetais\/"},"modified":"2024-07-24T23:40:50","modified_gmt":"2024-07-25T05:40:50","slug":"jai-eu-du-mal-a-savoir-qui-jetais","status":"publish","type":"stories","link":"https:\/\/saprea.org\/fr\/stories\/jai-eu-du-mal-a-savoir-qui-jetais\/","title":{"rendered":"J’ai eu du mal \u00e0 savoir qui j’\u00e9tais"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

La plupart des gens peuvent se rem\u00e9morer leur enfance et en garder des souvenirs d’amour et de rire. Moi, je regarde mon enfance et je n’ai qu’un seul souvenir. Ce souvenir a contr\u00f4l\u00e9 ma vie et m’a pris beaucoup de choses. <\/p>\n\n

J’ai \u00e9t\u00e9 abus\u00e9e sexuellement par mon oncle \u00e0 l’\u00e2ge de 10 ans. Ma famille, \u00e0 part mes parents, mon fr\u00e8re et une tante, m’a tourn\u00e9 le dos. Ils ne m’ont pas crue. Ils m’ont d\u00e9test\u00e9e et m’ont reni\u00e9e. \u00c0 partir de ce moment-l\u00e0, je me suis sentie seule et abandonn\u00e9e. J’ai eu du mal \u00e0 savoir qui j’\u00e9tais. On m’a vol\u00e9 mon enfance et mes bons souvenirs. <\/p>\n\n

Malheureusement, mes abus ne se sont pas arr\u00eat\u00e9s l\u00e0. J’ai \u00e9t\u00e9 victime d’abus de la part d’un autre oncle et d’un ami proche de la famille. Apr\u00e8s cela, je suis devenue une coquille vide, persuad\u00e9e qu’il n’existait pas de toucher s\u00fbr. Je croyais qu’on ne pourrait jamais m’aimer, mais seulement m’utiliser. Je croyais que je n’\u00e9tais pas digne d’\u00eatre aim\u00e9e, que j’\u00e9tais ab\u00eem\u00e9e et que je ne conna\u00eetrais jamais le vrai bonheur. <\/p>\n\n

J’ai pass\u00e9 une grande partie de ma vie \u00e0 passer d’une relation \u00e0 l’autre, \u00e0 la recherche de quelqu’un qui m’aimerait. Je cherchais \u00e0 combler le vide laiss\u00e9 par les abus que j’avais subis et la perte de ma famille. <\/p>\n\n

J’ai particip\u00e9 \u00e0 la retraite Saprea<\/a> en ao\u00fbt 2018. J’y suis all\u00e9e effray\u00e9e \u00e0 mort et toujours convaincue qu’il \u00e9tait impossible de r\u00e9parer les dommages caus\u00e9s. Je croyais vraiment qu’il \u00e9tait impossible de me r\u00e9parer et que c’\u00e9tait ainsi que ma vie serait \u00e0 jamais. J’\u00e9tais loin de me douter que ce serait un tremplin vers la gu\u00e9rison et le bonheur. <\/p>\n\n

Je suis rentr\u00e9e chez moi avec le sentiment d’\u00eatre une personne compl\u00e8tement diff\u00e9rente. Pour la premi\u00e8re fois de ma vie, j’avais de l’espoir. J’avais un chemin \u00e0 suivre et, surtout, j’avais \u00e0 nouveau une voix. La route a \u00e9t\u00e9 longue et je sais qu’il me reste encore beaucoup \u00e0 faire, mais je gu\u00e9ris et je suis forte. Je vois la vie tellement diff\u00e9remment aujourd’hui et je le dois \u00e0 Saprea. J’ai cherch\u00e9 pendant si longtemps un moyen de gu\u00e9rir et d’\u00eatre normal. Je ne veux plus \u00eatre \u00ab\u00a0normale\u00a0\u00bb. Je ne suis pas normale, je suis une battante, je suis forte et je ne vais pas passer un autre moment de ma vie \u00e0 \u00eatre une victime. Je vais rena\u00eetre de mes cendres et me battre. <\/p>\n\n

Je ne peux pas r\u00e9cup\u00e9rer cette petite fille que j’ai perdue il y a tant d’ann\u00e9es. J’ai pleur\u00e9 sa perte, mais j’ai le pouvoir d’\u00eatre qui je veux \u00eatre et de ne pas permettre \u00e0 mes agresseurs de me dicter ce \u00e0 quoi je dois ressembler. C’est ma vie et mon parcours, et je suis ENFIN enthousiate par le chemin \u00e0 parcourir ! <\/p>\n\n

Je vous remercie de m’avoir offert cette opportunit\u00e9. Merci pour les outils que vous m’avez fournis. Merci de m’avoir fourni un endroit s\u00fbr pour commencer, et les femmes extraordinaires que vous avez fait entrer dans ma vie, je les consid\u00e8re maintenant comme mes s\u0153urs ! <\/p>\n\n

-Cheryl, survivante <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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