{"id":28643,"date":"2024-07-23T11:38:07","date_gmt":"2024-07-23T17:38:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/saprea.org\/stories\/je-ne-me-cache-plus-dans-lombre-de-la-honte\/"},"modified":"2024-07-23T11:38:07","modified_gmt":"2024-07-23T17:38:07","slug":"je-ne-me-cache-plus-dans-lombre-de-la-honte","status":"publish","type":"stories","link":"https:\/\/saprea.org\/fr\/stories\/je-ne-me-cache-plus-dans-lombre-de-la-honte\/","title":{"rendered":"Je ne me cache plus dans l&rsquo;ombre de la honte"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Je ne savais pas \u00e0 quel point les choses qui m&rsquo;\u00e9taient arriv\u00e9es cette nuit-l\u00e0 allaient fa\u00e7onner non seulement ma vie, mais aussi la personne que j&rsquo;ai \u00e9t\u00e9 pendant si longtemps. J&rsquo;ai gard\u00e9 mon secret cach\u00e9 et j&rsquo;ai esp\u00e9r\u00e9 que la force de la personne que j&rsquo;\u00e9tais m&rsquo;aiderait \u00e0 oublier tout cela. J&rsquo;ai essay\u00e9 de me surpasser dans tout ce que je faisais dans ma vie pour fuir le sentiment d&rsquo;\u00eatre inutile, de culpabilit\u00e9 et de <a href=\"https:\/\/saprea.org\/fr\/guerir\/la-honte\/?utm_source=stories&amp;utm_medium=shame&amp;utm_campaign=english\">honte<\/a>. Je faisais tout avec intensit\u00e9, de mes loisirs \u00e0 mon travail scolaire.    <\/p>\n\n<p>J&rsquo;ai chant\u00e9 et dans\u00e9 sur des sc\u00e8nes de la Californie \u00e0 l&rsquo;\u00c9quateur et je n&rsquo;arrivais pas \u00e0 me d\u00e9barrasser du sentiment d&rsquo;\u00eatre <a href=\"https:\/\/saprea.org\/fr\/guerir\/la-solitude\/?utm_source=stories&amp;utm_medium=loneliness&amp;utm_campaign=english\">seule<\/a> et pi\u00e9g\u00e9e. C&rsquo;est fou, non ? Je pouvais me tenir sur une sc\u00e8ne devant tant de gens et me sentir si seule. J&rsquo;ai \u00e9galement eu des <a href=\"https:\/\/saprea.org\/fr\/guerir\/attaques-de-panique\/?utm_source=stories&amp;utm_medium=panic_attacks&amp;utm_campaign=english\">crises de panique<\/a> et l&rsquo;impression d&rsquo;\u00eatre \u00e9cras\u00e9e. Puis j&rsquo;ai r\u00e9alis\u00e9 que la d\u00e9cision que j&rsquo;avais prise avait permis au monstre qui \u00e9tait en moi de grandir.     <\/p>\n\n<p>Je me rends compte aujourd&rsquo;hui que je me sentais indigne de toutes les bonnes choses de la vie, alors j&rsquo;ai pris des d\u00e9cisions qui ont \u00e9t\u00e9 compl\u00e8tement destructrices dans ma vie. \u00c0 l&rsquo;\u00e9poque, je ne me rendais m\u00eame pas compte que tout cela \u00e9tait li\u00e9. Je savais que mon secret maintenait les gens que j&rsquo;aimais \u00e0 distance, mais que se passerait-il s&rsquo;ils le d\u00e9couvraient ? Et s&rsquo;ils savaient ? J&rsquo;ai cru ce qu&rsquo;on m&rsquo;avait appris \u00e0 croire. C&rsquo;\u00e9tait en quelque sorte ma faute. S&rsquo;ils le savaient, ils auraient moins d&rsquo;estime pour moi ou ne s&rsquo;int\u00e9resseraient pas du tout \u00e0 moi.       <\/p>\n\n<p>Lorsque mon mari et moi nous sommes mari\u00e9s, il ne savait pas \u00e0 quoi il aurait affaire. Lorsque le secret a \u00e9t\u00e9 r\u00e9v\u00e9l\u00e9, il a \u00e9t\u00e9 extraordinaire. Il a essay\u00e9 de m&rsquo;aider de toutes les mani\u00e8res possibles et imaginables. Notre vie en a \u00e9t\u00e9 tr\u00e8s affect\u00e9e. J&rsquo;ai entendu parler de Saprea par l&rsquo;un des travailleurs de l&rsquo;organisation o\u00f9 je suis b\u00e9n\u00e9vole.     <\/p>\n\n<p>Le week-end pr\u00e9c\u00e9dant la <a href=\"https:\/\/saprea.org\/saprea-retreat?utm_source=survivor_stories&amp;utm_medium=website&amp;utm_campaign=internal_link\">retraite Saprea<\/a>, j&rsquo;ai eu une crise de panique telle que je n&rsquo;ai pas pu sortir de ma chambre pendant trois jours. Mon mari m&rsquo;a aid\u00e9e \u00e0 surmonter cette crise et a tout fait pour que j\u2019aille \u00e0 la retraite et me rende au lieu de rendez-vous pour le transport. Le premier jour, lorsque j&rsquo;ai pris mon repas, la plupart d&rsquo;entre nous \u00e9taient un peu silencieuses. En regardant autour de moi, je me suis aper\u00e7ue que pour la premi\u00e8re fois de ma vie, je n&rsquo;\u00e9tais pas seule. Aucune d&rsquo;entre nous n&rsquo;a expliqu\u00e9 pourquoi elle \u00e9tait l\u00e0, mais nous avions toutes un lien commun. C&rsquo;\u00e9tait le sentiment le plus exaltant et le plus incroyable qui soit. On me comprenait et, qui plus est, on m&rsquo;aidait \u00e0 me comprendre.       <\/p>\n\n<p>Je ne me cache plus dans les t\u00e9n\u00e8bres de la honte ou de la culpabilit\u00e9. Il ne me contr\u00f4lera pas. Je n&rsquo;ai rien fait de mal. J&rsquo;ai trouv\u00e9 de nombreuses femmes comme moi et nous sommes formidables. Oui, il m&rsquo;est arriv\u00e9 quelque chose, mais je peux choisir ce que j&rsquo;en fais. Je choisis d&rsquo;aider les autres \u00e0 sortir de l&rsquo;obscurit\u00e9 et \u00e0 devenir des guerri\u00e8res. Et si c&rsquo;\u00e9tait le moment pour lequel nous avons \u00e9t\u00e9 cr\u00e9\u00e9es ? Pour aider les autres \u00e0 s&rsquo;\u00e9lever avec nous.       <\/p>\n\n<p>-Toni, survivante <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Toni est une survivante d&rsquo;abus sexuels subis dans l&rsquo;enfance qui a particip\u00e9 \u00e0 la retraite de Saprea. 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