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Je n’avais que peu ou pas de souvenirs de mon enfance. Je n’avais jamais pens\u00e9 \u00e0 ce manque de souvenirs. Je n’ai jamais pens\u00e9 \u00e0 l’absence de souvenirs, ni aux morceaux qui ressemblaient \u00e0 des \u00e9clats de verre bris\u00e9s. Il me semblait normal de me sentir seule, triste avec mon sourire peint. Je sais qu’il y a eu des moments heureux, mais mon corps s’est accroch\u00e9 \u00e0 la douleur. J’avais mal au ventre, je me sentais laide et mal aim\u00e9e. Les parents ivres et peu vigilants qui ne savaient rien des multiples mains pos\u00e9es sur leur fille. C’\u00e9tait dur. Je pense encore au nombre de fois et aux personnes que je devais voir r\u00e9guli\u00e8rement. <\/p>\n\n

Pendant des ann\u00e9es, j’ai \u00e9t\u00e9 une coquille vide. Une nuit, alors que je vivais dans une famille d’accueil et que je faisais du b\u00e9n\u00e9volat en Arm\u00e9nie, le pays de mes anc\u00eatres, j’ai r\u00eav\u00e9 de mon exp\u00e9rience. Je l’ai balay\u00e9 comme si ce n’\u00e9tait rien. La douleur me paraissait r\u00e9elle. Pr\u00e8s d’un an plus tard, ces r\u00eaves se sont poursuivis et les souvenirs sont r\u00e9apparus. Soudain, je me suis sentie \u00e0 la fois tr\u00e8s triste et tr\u00e8s heureuse parce que j’avais des souvenirs. L’intensit\u00e9 des sentiments \u00e9tait effrayante. J’avais toujours \u00e9t\u00e9 anxieuse<\/a>, mais je ne m’\u00e9tais jamais sentie d\u00e9prim\u00e9e. J’ai eu des moments de tristesse et de col\u00e8re paralysantes. Je voulais affronter toutes les personnes de mon pass\u00e9 qui m’avaient fait du mal. Je le veux toujours. J’esp\u00e8re pouvoir le faire un jour. J’ai encore des souvenirs qui remontent \u00e0 la surface. <\/p>\n\n

Le nombre de fois o\u00f9 j’ai \u00e9t\u00e9 abus\u00e9e sexuellement me fait encore pleurer. J’ai failli me laisser emporter par la douleur. Je n’oublierai jamais, apr\u00e8s avoir tent\u00e9 de mettre fin \u00e0 mes jours, \u00e0 quel point j’ai r\u00e9alis\u00e9 que je voulais vivre. Toute cette douleur et cette souffrance m’ont rappel\u00e9 que j’\u00e9tais forte. J’ai toujours \u00e9t\u00e9 une personne qui essaie d’insuffler de la force aux autres pour les aider \u00e0 voir \u00e0 quel point ils sont formidables. Je n’avais pas r\u00e9alis\u00e9 que je devais trouver ma propre force. Je devais apprendre \u00e0 m’aimer. Aujourd’hui, c’est chose faite. Aujourd’hui, je suis capable d’utiliser toutes mes exp\u00e9riences n\u00e9gatives pour aider les autres en tant que th\u00e9rapeute en sant\u00e9 mentale. Je m’efforce encore de pardonner \u00e0 ceux qui m’ont fait du mal et \u00e0 certains que je ne pardonnerai peut-\u00eatre jamais. Mais je ressens de la paix en sachant que je m’en suis sortie et que je peux aider les autres \u00e0 faire de m\u00eame. <\/p>\n\n

-Rose, survivante <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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